February 20, 2012

Hi!!!!

Well, I have been lost some days, I needed to rest. I also studied some hours, but specially my listening skills, but in general I was relaxing, doing exercises, strolling, talking with friends, and giving a pause to me brain. I should admit that I have been dreaming in spanenglish, so a part of my mind continue studying still in rest, or maybe a part of my mind is always focus on go to NZ.

So these days have been a good moment for my mind, to rest and to prepare to continue studying.

I went to the park a couple of time, and to do exercises to the 'Cota mil' on Sunday. It is a highway in the city which is closed on Sunday morning to people goes to enjoy there. So it was too sunny and I burned my feet with the heat of the floor. It sound incredible but was true! I dressed my shoes and socks but the floor was enough heat to burn my poor feet. I could not walk for around 6 hours while my feet were better. I needed to use some creams and medicines to fix my poor feet. Well, today it sound funny, but was horrible.... Umm but funny too....

I have spent a lot of time with my friend as I told you some days ago.

I watched some documentaries very interesting these days, and I am happy about the way that is improving my listening skills. Yesterday I definitely didn't want to study, so I did what I always do when I don't want to study but I feel that I must be it: I watched a Harry Potter movie, it is always funny and it could be an English practice, but sometimes I am not sure if I am understanding or I just remember each single line of that movie.... Lol.

Well, today is Monday again, here is still a holiday because in Venezuela carnival is Monday and Tuesday, anyway I spent two hours studying English with my online course, it is a very good tool to pronunciation skill, it is good in general, but with pronunciation is great!

I just finished it, and it is time to rest. Maybe I will watch a movie or documentaries before to fall asleep.

Well, see you soon.

OH! One more thing! Today I received a email of New Zealand Migration Department telling me that if I have a question, please I could say it to them, because they want to help me and they could assignee me a free adviser to help me if I need it; because they don’t want to lose me for a simple question, they are waiting to me!

I definitely love that country, and I am absolutely happy feeling that they are valuing me! Or that they could value me in the future!

Another reflexion: I have fell in love a lot of times; when was younger I fell in love in wrong ways, I loved people or situations very hard or painful, but now I usually fell in love with a person, situation or thing that could value it and love me as I deserve; sometimes when those people write me, I think that I have fell in love in the right way and with a wonderful lover. 

I'm falling in love again

When I was 16 years old, born my Little brother, some hours late I had him first time, in this moment I discovered a new kind of feelings, as soon as I felt his warm in my hands I started to question me: how did I could live 16 years without him? Sometimes, to have the most wonderful brother in the life could be annoying, exhausting or irritating, anyway each day I love him as big as is possible and I miss him each day far of him; and each day in my heart this question is still live in my heart…

9 years after, I met my husband, and that question had a revival: how did I could live 25 years without him? Near to him I have grown, discovered and a new way to see the world, I have felt happy, loved, cared, angry, upset… etc… anyway, each day I wake up and in heart is difficult to me remember how was my life before met him… just I can remember I had a wonderful brother and I love him.

They have been my biggest love! They are always in my mind and my heart, and I can hardly imagine my life without them.

Now, I’m discovering a new big love, I’m falling in love again, but not toward a person, I’m falling in love of Auckland. I read news, watch pictures, research about life style, culture, etc… and day after day I feel I love that city. I don’t know Auckland yet; but I’m sure, where I’ll be there I’ll never and ever understand how I could live in another place.

Today I was to request my new passport with my civil state like married, because will be easier request my husband's visa in this way; when I’ll receive my passport I’ll start my migration process, and in couple of months I’ll be able to go to Auckland and meet with my new love…

Today I was looking for pictures to change my blog, and each photo is most beautiful than previous one; my heart is in love, and I want to cry because I have a feelings mixed… I feel Auckland more near to me each moment, but I want to be there right now. I know, in the future I’ll discover bad thing and sometimes all not be ok there, but I’ll love that place anyway and discover a new important things there…

I want to be a Kiwi

I want to be a Kiwi!

The kiwi is a small and smart bird that lost their wings because didn’t have any predator and never needed to fly.

Some people could  think, is very sad being a bird and cannot fly… But I’m not agree, because if you don’t have predator you can do anything that you want and never have fear, you can walk, think, development yourself that you want without fear!

For example this kiwi, he want to fly, and he was able to development a new environment to do it. If this kiwi was scared for a predator, could do development this environment? Only with relax, without fear the people can think important things for their life, in other situation, the people are surviving.

I have big wings and every day I need fly high and quick because my life is every moment in risk. I cannot think as I would like, because I need fly every moment… I cannot walk, I cannot live… I need spend my time flying as quick as I can… every moment.

I want to lose my winds and walk without fear. I want to lose my winds and feel save in my environment and the people near to me

The natural process of life is birth, development, reproduce and die. Well, I born, development, changer and want continue change, I hope reproduce but not a frightened bird, I want to reproduce a kiwi, continue my development and die.

Now, I’m in the wrong place, I’m preparing myself to go to the Kiwi place, and become a Kiwi people. I want to change my winds for a life without fear.

In short time, I’ll be a kiwi and I cannot fly anymore with ours winds, but still, I’ll be able development a new way to fly if I want to do it again.